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Dependency
03:35
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Take every vice you can
Do whatever it takes
To keep yourself in place
You’re a fuck up and you know it
You wait for the lights to go out
You wait and promise that
You’ll get to work and you try
But you’re tired and your arm hurts
They never notice and they never will so
Take every vice you can
Do whatever it takes
To keep yourself in place
You’re a fuck up and you know it
It’s all a lie you keep on spinning
A knife you keep for pleasure
You never use it like that
But now you have your own companion
Money you should save you quickly burn away
And no it’s nothing serious
You know that you’re just fucking lying
You’re an egocentric narcissist
Convinced that it’s just
Melodrama gushing out of
Every mark you make so
Take every vice you can
Do whatever it takes
To keep yourself in place
You’re a fuck up and you know it
You’re a fucking waste of space
A biological disgrace
You’re a fuck up and you know it
So get out there and show it
Take every vice you can
Do whatever it takes
To keep yourself in place
You’re a fuck up and you know it
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2. |
Stuck
03:05
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Far away from home
Far away and it's in my head
I'm going to come down
I'm going to calm down
Again I feel left out
Again I just left out the parts
The parts are wrong
Everything is wrong
The look in my face
My face, my hair
Something's never change
Sometimes I'm good enough or no?
I think I need a better home
It will be mine, my own
My pain, my home grown
But where am I today?
I'm stuck here in two places and
I just can't get out
Get out
Get out of here before I lose myself again
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Colder
02:53
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As I lay my head down tonight
I hear the snow against the night
I live alone and I'm alright
And know that I don't miss the light
I live on cliffs and clouds and waves
Inside my head my music's great
But every time it comes out wrong
Too much to sell a soul a song
But that's fine
It’s all over
It's peaceful belonging
To something much older
It's fine
All over
It's comfortable here and
In my head its colder
And maybe not time, not time
I think about this all my life but
Maybe this time, this time
I can build up strength or express what I feel
But it's alright, alright, I understand oh
I understand to well what it means to me
What it means to me what means to be alone
But that's fine
It's over
It's peaceful belonging
To something older
It's fine
All over
It's comfortable here and
In my head it’s colder
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4. |
Another Day
02:46
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It's another rainy day
And it's tense below the ceiling
And there's moments where I feel like
I believe myself again
It's another broken day
And I'm sitting in the middle
And I'm staying up all night because
I needed some time
It's another bloody day.
It's another dreary day
And I like it when it's dreary
And I like the times when I can
Hide myself from everything
It's another sunny day
And it really should be winter
How can I understand
But now
Now I'm older
Now I'm cold again
Now
Now I'm changing
Now I'm running away
It's another bloody day
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5. |
Let Me Have It
02:36
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What good is sleeping now
What use is time when I just waste it
What does my money do for me when I’m only gonna spend it
What good’s pretending?
What does the conversation do
When I’m only spending time before I go right back to it
What does it matter?
What should I do when it feels better to just let me have it
How did this happen?
How did I let myself do this?
How can I forgive my own decisions
Just shut up
Just don’t bother
Just stay quiet
Just disappear please
What does it matter?
What should I do when it feels better to just let me have it
What does it matter?
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6. |
Nostalgia
02:56
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I heard a song begin by asking questions
From a time when life was simple
When it felt like I could make it
I could save them, I could do it all
A metal pot of heated water
A list of secrets I'd been keeping
Arranged in order of importance
What right do I have to it all
To make amends
To get back into how things were
Is it all changed forever
Is there somewhere I can go
Every day is a new inspiration
Every day it's something new
Every night is spent medicating
Spent just trying to make up for the day
And it all goes towards this plan
The idea that afterwards I'll be good again
And it all falls apart sometimes
It all feels so empty what am I supposed to do?
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7. |
11-9
03:48
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The day's not the same
Everything's changed
This is our life
2 years of what?
Of learning the pace
Only to learn that you don't have a place
And it's all coming up wrong
And now, violence abound
Reflections all wrong, who am I now?
I want to be strong, I'm terribly weak
A bottle to bed
A brush in with death
I can't walk straight
I should be fine, I don't feel safe
Bring out the knives, just in case
Seven decades of time
And now all at once
The signs are all out,
The men dressed in white,
They're now in charge
We gamble our lives
And it's all coming up wrong
And now, violence abound
Reflections all wrong, who am I now?
I want to be strong, I'm terribly weak
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8. |
Play Happy
04:20
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It’s time
It’s empty
It’s hollowed out inside
It stings
It’s over
It vanishes
But I’m still here
But I’m still breathing
It’s done
It happens
I can’t do anything
It’s over
It’s over
And I just let it happen
But I’m still here
But I’m still bleeding
Just smile
Say you’re fine
Just breathe
Just smile
Play happy
Just believe
Just smile
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